Neal was here

This has been one of the hardest years of my life to date. Not because of financial difficulty; God has blessed me with a job with an ever-increasing paycheck. Not because of work stress; my job is very laid back and they let me get away with all kinds of stuff. Not because of lack of ministry opportunity; I’ve got a large Bible study group that I work with, as well as playing in the band for my local church, and I’ve got a side ministry going involving getting the churches together in Tucson to really enjoy time with the Lord together. And it’s not because of lack of challenge: I’ve got several websites that I’m building in a business we’ve started together, as well as another band I’m playing in, and a large stack of books I’m intending to read. It’s not really even because I lost a relationship with a girl whom I deeply care for, although I think that played a role.

No, this has been a hard year because I’ve been generally dissatisfied with myself, and struggling to figure out who I really am, and what I’m supposed to be doing with my life. Clearly, this is a very cliche battle, and I readily admit it. But it’s been a battle nonetheless. But I’m learning, and here’s a quick summary of the some of the lessons learned from this travail.

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